Coping Up with a Failure The Biggest One of My Life
I have never failed. That is a bold statement but allow me to elaborate. Sure I have failed many times, but most of thems are failures I quickly bounce back from. Being a Student, the only failure I could have possibly have had will be Failure in quizzes, examinations, projects and love. I have failed tons of quizzes and examinations, but I did what I must to fight back and retaliate myself to propel myself back up, as for love, I had only one major heartbreak and meltdown. I will always remember that experience like it was yesterday. Contrary to the norm of crying like there is no tomorrow,being bat-shit sad and emo, I worked myself into a fury into making myself better, instead of dampening my confidence to approach girls, I became more confident. Six years ago, I was a fat ass, weighing in at a staggering 180lbs on 5’5” height, I was an obese thin ass, I didn’t have a fat ass even when I was fat L On March 2008, my HS Teacher told me I was too fat to go out with my other batchmates. That was harsh but true, another thing which made me pursue a better start at college. By June I lost 30lbs and by October I weighed only 130lbs. I told myself I can make it, and to no surprise, I did. As for approaching women, you can ask a lot of my friends or the girls I met themselves hahaha.
As I graduated college, I can say I performed a little above average on a half-assed effort. Don’t get me wrong, I loved studying, and not to sound nerdy but I love MATH as much as I love POKEMON and I really love Pokemon! During my first two years in college, I was at the top of my game always competing with the top who eventually became our Magna Cum Laude hahaha, hi Kevin Cala hihihi. But as Majoring came, this is something I had shared with my friends, even with my potential employers, I became disinterested and my studying efforts went downhill. What made my 3 years interesting was my amazing friends and professors which helped me into who I am today. To my ECE professors, especially Ma’am Lot and Ma’am Asilo, the two professors who I know know me, thank you for believing in me and making me feel like I’m a child of the ECE family, thank you so much, for my ES teachers, thank you for making me love math more and making my transition to college the best two years, performance-wise, of my entire stay, especially Sir Rambongga and Ma’am Guevarra.
Last December 14 and 15, I took the ECE Licensure examination. At first I was motivated to study, I finished the math books earlier and I constantly read conceptual parts on GEAS and EST, for Elecs, I made it a point to memorize all the Virtual Review shit, which I did. That was basically my whole gameplan as EVERY PASSER HAS CONSISTENTLY TOLD ME TO DO SO. I’m a lazy person, and why would I not believe my mentors and former passers who consistenly told me ELECS is a PIECE OF CAKE BASED ON VIRTUAL REVIEWER. There was even a mentor who begged us to not miss the virtual to the point that he said forget about reviewing the books, Villamor and Gibilisco, both I finished looks Famming, the latter I actually read until the end, and just focus on Virtual Review. I was feeling pretty confident as the exam grew near but an unexpected occurrence happened which would trigger, for the third time in my life, a guinea pig scenario. Ms. Marcelo, RIP, died, and the Board had to be renewed, and frustratingly, so does the Question Bank. I know you didn’t ask but, in highschool, I assumed my Alma Mater was threatened by the rise of Science High School that a few select had been subjected into a new curriculum, I was part of that bunch, but I quit, not because I can’t but because I didn’t want to be the at the bottom, I saw the opportunity to be the best among the average. I’d rather be the best among the average than be the worst among the best. And sure enough, I graduated the best among the average. This is not like being the handsomest among the uglies or being the ugliest in the handsomes, I assure you, I’m in no way average. Being the best among the averages skyrocketed my confidence. As college approached, I was subjected to a new curriculum, which I honestly did not feel because of aforementioned things about my major.
Now, for the third time, I am a Guinea Pig once more, and Finally, after all the accumulation of strength, confidence, morale, expectations from people I aim to please, I am a first-born, I have that please everybody complexity HAHAHAHA, I FAILED HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I CRASHED I BURNED HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA
Rather than being mopey, sad, pathetic emo which thinks life is not worth living anymore, I actually think the opposite, I admit I am hurt, but it does not compare to the Laughter I feel inside, I don’t feel pressured, I don’t feel shamed and I don’t think my life is over. That is how I am coping up with this failure, I admire myself for the strength of instantaneously looking forward to the future. And I think that is we should put our minds into, the future. I know how frustrating investing on review centers and investing time for naught can feel, but what can we do for now? Nothing. Instead of wallowing in sadness, for those who want to pursue license, study now, you know in yourself you can do it and I’m pretty sure this experience will make you wiser for the next board examination. For those who will not pursue the boards and focus on their Go! All of us have gone through 5 years of studying, and you owe it to yourself to believe that those five years will not only be substantial but more than enough to propel you to excel, I honestly don’t know what to say as I only hold on to one thing, my positive outlook in life and Faith that I have much more potential inside me. This is the major factor as to how I’m moving on and Coping with the Failure, the extreme self-confidence and super optimism, I believe that I am better and much more capable than the limits of the License, hahaha! I’m already employed into one of the top companies in the world, I’m loving it here and the compensation is almost twice what I could have gotten should I have pursued the Telco companies or Semicon industries, sure money can’t buy happiness but it can buy me temporal happiness on a monthly basis, so yeah, currently I bought myself a Corsair M95 Gaming Mouse and a 3DS XL, I’m pretty sure I’m happy hahahaha, and I assure you I’m not the kind of person who will be content with Job Stagnation, I aim to find growth in my career and I know Hewlett-Packard will aid me going forward. And we all know, happiness is with our God, alam kong hindi madadala ang pera sa kabilang buhay, but I don’t think pursuing money is wrong, I aim to help people when I get rich, is that bad, if I’m looking forward to growth, dun na ako sa mas mabilis kong maabot pangarap ko.
Think of it as this, this is the NBA Draft, the passers were the ones who got drafted but we, the undrafted can still make it and be one of the best, Ben Wallace is my favorited Undrafted Player hahaha. Kung naglalaro ka ng NBA, may PoItential dun, laro ka NBA 2K12 or yung mga nauna tignan mo yung Potential stat ni Lebron, ganun ako kagaling HAHAHAHAHA Ito pa Tang ina, College Dropout nga mumimilyonaryo at fumeferrari dahil sa #Power #FrontRow putang ikaw pa kayang College graduate? HAHAHAHAHA
That being said, I will never forget to thank God for this experience, I was a pompous braggart, I had to be stopped, during exam period, I was actually just giving thanks for the job God gave me, I did not care if I passed, if my slot was to be filled might as well be to someone who deserved it, glad to see all my friends passed. Congrats Engineers, kita kita nalang tayo pag may business work niyo sa HP hahaha.
#December2013BoardExamFailer and #Unashamed HAHAHAHA