Coping Up with a Failure The Biggest One of My Life
I
have never failed. That is a bold statement but allow me to elaborate. Sure I have
failed many times, but most of thems are failures I quickly bounce back from. Being
a Student, the only failure I could have possibly have had will be Failure in
quizzes, examinations, projects and love. I have failed tons of quizzes and
examinations, but I did what I must to fight back and retaliate myself to
propel myself back up, as for love, I had only one major heartbreak and
meltdown. I will always remember that experience like it was yesterday. Contrary
to the norm of crying like there is no tomorrow,being bat-shit sad and emo, I worked
myself into a fury into making myself better, instead of dampening my
confidence to approach girls, I became more confident. Six years ago, I was a
fat ass, weighing in at a staggering 180lbs on 5’5” height, I was an obese thin
ass, I didn’t have a fat ass even when I was fat L
On March 2008, my HS Teacher told me I was too fat to go out with my other
batchmates. That was harsh but true, another thing which made me pursue a
better start at college. By June I lost 30lbs and by October I weighed only
130lbs. I told myself I can make it, and to no surprise, I did. As for
approaching women, you can ask a lot of my friends or the girls I met themselves
hahaha.
As
I graduated college, I can say I performed a little above average on a
half-assed effort. Don’t get me wrong, I loved studying, and not to sound nerdy
but I love MATH as much as I love POKEMON and I really love Pokemon! During my
first two years in college, I was at the top of my game always competing with
the top who eventually became our Magna Cum Laude hahaha, hi Kevin Cala hihihi.
But as Majoring came, this is something I had shared with my friends, even with
my potential employers, I became disinterested and my studying efforts went
downhill. What made my 3 years interesting was my amazing friends and
professors which helped me into who I am today. To my ECE professors,
especially Ma’am Lot and Ma’am Asilo, the two professors who I know know me,
thank you for believing in me and making
me feel like I’m a child of the ECE family, thank you so much, for my ES
teachers, thank you for making me love math more and making my transition to
college the best two years, performance-wise, of my entire stay, especially Sir
Rambongga and Ma’am Guevarra.
Last
December 14 and 15, I took the ECE Licensure examination. At first I was motivated
to study, I finished the math books earlier and I constantly read conceptual
parts on GEAS and EST, for Elecs, I made it a point to memorize all the Virtual
Review shit, which I did. That was basically my whole gameplan as EVERY PASSER
HAS CONSISTENTLY TOLD ME TO DO SO. I’m a lazy person, and why would I not
believe my mentors and former passers who consistenly told me ELECS is a PIECE
OF CAKE BASED ON VIRTUAL REVIEWER. There was even a mentor who begged us to not
miss the virtual to the point that he said forget about reviewing the books,
Villamor and Gibilisco, both I finished looks Famming, the latter I actually
read until the end, and just focus on Virtual Review. I was feeling pretty
confident as the exam grew near but an unexpected occurrence happened which
would trigger, for the third time in my life, a guinea pig scenario. Ms. Marcelo,
RIP, died, and the Board had to be renewed, and frustratingly, so does the Question
Bank. I know you didn’t ask but, in
highschool, I assumed my Alma Mater was threatened by the rise of Science High
School that a few select had been subjected into a new curriculum, I was part
of that bunch, but I quit, not because I can’t but because I didn’t want to be
the at the bottom, I saw the opportunity to be the best among the average. I’d
rather be the best among the average than be the worst among the best. And sure
enough, I graduated the best among the average. This is not like being the
handsomest among the uglies or being the ugliest in the handsomes, I assure
you, I’m in no way average. Being the best among the averages skyrocketed my
confidence. As college approached, I was subjected to a new curriculum, which I
honestly did not feel because of aforementioned things about my major.
Now, for the
third time, I am a Guinea Pig once more, and Finally, after all the
accumulation of strength, confidence, morale, expectations from people I aim to
please, I am a first-born, I have that please everybody complexity HAHAHAHA, I FAILED
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I CRASHED I BURNED HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA
Rather than
being mopey, sad, pathetic emo which thinks life is not worth living anymore, I
actually think the opposite, I admit I am hurt, but it does not compare to the
Laughter I feel inside, I don’t feel pressured, I don’t feel shamed and I don’t
think my life is over. That is how I am coping up with this failure, I admire
myself for the strength of instantaneously looking forward to the future. And I
think that is we should put our minds into, the future. I know how frustrating
investing on review centers and investing time for naught can feel, but what
can we do for now? Nothing. Instead of
wallowing in sadness, for those who want to pursue license, study now, you know
in yourself you can do it and I’m pretty sure this experience will make you
wiser for the next board examination. For
those who will not pursue the boards and focus on their Go! All of us have gone
through 5 years of studying, and you owe it to yourself to believe that those
five years will not only be substantial but more than enough to propel you to
excel, I honestly don’t know what to say as I only hold on to one thing, my
positive outlook in life and Faith that I have much more potential inside me. This
is the major factor as to how I’m moving on and Coping with the Failure, the
extreme self-confidence and super optimism, I believe that I am better and much
more capable than the limits of the License, hahaha! I’m already employed into
one of the top companies in the world, I’m loving it here and the compensation
is almost twice what I could have gotten should I have pursued the Telco
companies or Semicon industries, sure money can’t buy happiness but it can buy
me temporal happiness on a monthly basis, so yeah, currently I bought myself a
Corsair M95 Gaming Mouse and a 3DS XL, I’m pretty sure I’m happy hahahaha, and
I assure you I’m not the kind of person who will be content with Job
Stagnation, I aim to find growth in my career and I know Hewlett-Packard will
aid me going forward. And we all know, happiness is with our God, alam kong
hindi madadala ang pera sa kabilang buhay, but I don’t think pursuing money is
wrong, I aim to help people when I get rich, is that bad, if I’m looking
forward to growth, dun na ako sa mas mabilis kong maabot pangarap ko.
Think of it as
this, this is the NBA Draft, the passers were the ones who got drafted but we,
the undrafted can still make it and be one of the best, Ben Wallace is my
favorited Undrafted Player hahaha. Kung naglalaro ka ng NBA, may PoItential
dun, laro ka NBA 2K12 or yung mga nauna tignan mo yung Potential stat ni
Lebron, ganun ako kagaling HAHAHAHAHA Ito pa Tang ina, College Dropout nga
mumimilyonaryo at fumeferrari dahil sa #Power #FrontRow putang ikaw pa kayang
College graduate? HAHAHAHAHA
That being said,
I will never forget to thank God for this experience, I was a pompous braggart,
I had to be stopped, during exam period, I was actually just giving thanks for
the job God gave me, I did not care if I passed, if my slot was to be filled
might as well be to someone who deserved it, glad to see all my friends passed.
Congrats Engineers, kita kita nalang tayo pag may business work niyo sa HP
hahaha.
#December2013BoardExamFailer
and #Unashamed HAHAHAHA
